Stop

We need to stop treating the planet like shit.

No one was supposed to be living here. The village is located in an area marked as uninhabited, a forest reserve, on the government map used by aid agencies. But field workers have discovered about 12,000 survivors in 60 villages across the area, all of them almost entirely wiped out. An estimated 20,000 people died.

The region was among the worst-hit because it lay directly along the path of the cyclone. But environmental experts say a more significant reason for the high death toll, here and elsewhere in the delta, was the systematic destruction of mangrove forests. In the December 2004 tsunami that devastated South Asia, dense mangrove coverage in Sri Lanka was shown to have helped save lives.

According to a study published last month by the U.N. Food and Agriculture Organization, decades of illegal encroachment and government-sanctioned neglect had seriously degraded the mangrove forests in the Irrawaddy Delta. “If there had been decent mangrove on the shorelines, the death toll would have been cut in half,” said Lucas Riegger, a U.N. vulnerability analyst and mapping specialist.

So Dirty

That came quickly

Today was my last day of school. I presented a humanities project that went wonderfully, and I even dressed nicely.

But it’s all done now. o_O Graduation is Saturday.

It all went so fast.

Implausible

(11:04:21 PM) Andy: nobody ever believes me that I’m happy or smile though
(11:04:27 PM) Alex: I see you smile all the time
(11:04:34 PM) Andy: no way

It happens.

New Gravel video

He even does the Soulja Boy dance. It’s ridiculous.

I make recording!

So, I decided to experiment with using my laptop and my two dollar microphone to record myself playing piano. It worked out better than I’d anticipated, as my piano opens up and I was able to dangle the microphone inside.

I recorded one of my favorite piano works, Chopin’s Prelude No. 15 in D flat major.

Download the MP3.

Sick yet again

It’s getting really tiring. Unfortunately, it’s probably due to a combination of the weather changing from snow to rain to humid to hot pretty much daily and my being around other sick people a lot. >.>

So in a way, I brought it upon myself, but who wants to think about that?

People are hard

It hurts to care about people, especially when they hurt. And when they don’t want to help themselves.

Why do people have terrible self-esteem and tie their self-worth to the happiness of others? Discuss.

New theme

New theme. I like it, but there are some changes I’ll probably make if I ever have time and start blogging more often. ;)

A New Future

I don’t know what I want to do with my life. I know that I want to go to college, and that I want to do something I enjoy. That’s it. I have no specifics, no plans, not even some vague goal. I’d like to be wealthy, but I’ve realized that’s a reaction to my parents’ constant financial struggles. I don’t want to suffer through that for the rest of my life.

I want to be more productive and less apathetic. Easier said than done. Right now it seems as if I’m doing nothing with my time; I spend most of it surfing the internet or texting two or three friends. And to make matters worse, I’m constantly thinking about how much of my life I’m wasting.

I have piles of books to read, stacks of music to play, things to learn, scholarships to apply for, homework to do; hell, I even have video games to play. And yet, I do none of it. Occasionally, I will briefly read or play piano, but I never spend the time doing them that I should. Instead, I waste it browsing the internet and texting.

I’m lazy, disinterested, and bitter. I sleep in, I take naps because I’m bored, and I no longer pace restlessly. This could be a sign that I’m content, but I’m not. I’m always bored, but never doing anything despite the immense opportunities I possess. I imagine I could do nearly anything if I were to put my mind to it, but I can’t bring myself to do so. Every attempt to change my ways ends in failure, usually quickly, within hours or days.

I can’t even be bothered to act in response to my feelings. Actually, I’m not sure I even know them. Just a few weeks ago I was discussing this with a friend, discussing intimate feelings. Even then, my only response was a simple ‘I dunno.’ Of course, as she continued asking questions, I began to just agree with them, sometimes half-heartedly, sometimes not. There were a few times when I actually felt as if I was accomplishing something and expressing something that I genuinely felt, but even this was only a result of other people prodding me.

As a result, I think I’m to attempt to set some simple goals.

  • Read a book each week.
  • Play piano every day.
  • Write every day.
  • Organize.
  • Learn something new.

Victory

I did marvelously on a research paper, several tests, got into Carleton College, oodles of financial aid, and I’m getting a new piano.

Great success. :)

I hate the world

After tonight’s band concert, there was ice on my car. Inside my car. There was ice inside the fucking windshield and the windows, much of it in places I could not reach with the scraper. And I looked absolutely retarded scraping the insides of the windows with the doors open.

I need new weatherstripping for my door. >.>

It came!

Processor and RAM and motherboard have finally arrived, and I now have a working computer again.

Unfortunately, I forgot to hook up the temperature display as well as a few of the USB ports.

Why me?

So, apparently, my RAM is really fucked up. That appears to account for my computer slowing down and everything freezing anytime anything starts using a decent amount of RAM.

On the other hand, when I replace it, hopefully soon, I’m going to get a new motherboard, processor, and RAM. Because DDR2 RAM is hugely cheaper than DDR RAM, and I could use a dual-core processor, and for the forty dollar difference, it’s worth it.

Now if only I had enough money…

Zing?

Finally done with college applications.